Ode to Pain

I have no friends now.
At least that's what my heart tells me.
And this time, I know my heart is wrong.
"Time heals", they say. I can't wait that long

I feel I find consolation where I can laugh and not cry.
But my tears continue to flow where no one else knows.
And that question will never cease: "WHY?!"

Pretenses will not help because my heart continues to bleed.
I sleep, I wake, I write and sometimes read.
Yet I do not feel any better doing any of these.

Sometimes I wish the Lord would just hide me, or even take me away!
But then again, maybe it is DESTINY.
My destiny to suffer and know pain.

Not once, not twice. All the same, I bear them all.
I cannot find a reason, but I know they will make me strong.

Whether I like it or not, God continues to bless me with a new day always.
He has a plan, but I am blank.
I can only ask for direction and make each blessing count.