Growing up and being through many things is 'normal' with everyone, I guess. Not a single person can deny that they have experienced some difficulty....whatever kind it may be. We all have our stories to tell.
In continuing my story:
It is realised (or at least, I've noticed) that we are nurtured to fear our parents. I believe this is very wrong.
We should be taught to fear God only but accord our parents their due respect in EVERY circumstance, no matter how exciting, annoying or even embarrassing.
Like I said before, I learnt to fear while growing up. And only until recently, I have continued to fear. I take blames which may not be mine, I cannot share my thoughts on any subject of discussion if my elders are around, I cannot even suggest a better or an easier way out of a situation because the older is always known to be the bigger brain.
Ah! Well, I have learnt now that even babies have rights. Children can teach their parents. And emotions (anger, joy, sadness) are not limited to the elderly alone.
In our society, it is an abomination for a child to be angry at their parent or older sibling. But we forget that anger is natural and we must teach our children to manage their emotions rather than let them think it is not allowed to feel anger, for example.
Back to fear and my hard times:
I believe everything I ever did wrong in my life (that I can remember, at least), I did because I feared to do right. And any bad situation I have encountered was also probably and most likely because I allowed fear of ending up in a certain way, eat me up.
Long story short, I'm now conscious of fear in my life. No matter how small the fear may try to prove, I believe it can pull me down hard and fast. And so I also need to be fast at detecting any such negative emotion and deal with it before attempting whatever it is I wish to do.
Fear blocks your active thoughts and makes you seem foolish. It prevents the right answers from coming to you when you need them the most. It pulls your spirit down and ultimately manages to make you go insane for some time.
Don't let any of this happen to you.
These have ever happened to me and I honestly did not enjoy any of it.
We thank God for a turnaround and hopeful fresh start.
I have told two short stories about my before....this is my now. My after shall slowly rise to the sky based on the now. And so I carve my future slowly but surely, carefully but perhaps not perfectly, freely but critically until I realise my dream. I shall save my dream however for another episode. :-)
Waow, very touching and taught provoking. keep it up.
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